Something shifted last night. A part of the Collective Unconscious became Conscious. A death but a birth.
It began with the death of the Iguana, then the King Cobra. Then I encountered a Frog (the messenger of transformation), last night a Scorpion, and before bed my dog friend killed a Rat (the inner critic). This much animal behaviour is not typical. I felt something shamanic in the air.
I had a visceral dream that I was face-to-face with so called ‘evil’. This dark entity was so close it’s like we were nose-to-nose, or my nose was on a mirror. Its gruesome face shed into increasing layers of decay and became skull-like. It could have been scary but for some reason I was laughing. In a strange spinning dance with it. Utterly amused by the grotesque.
I awoke at 2am and felt an aspect of myself, in the form of the Serpent, move up my body and into my mouth. Like I was integrating a deeply repressed or fractured part of the self. As it reached my throat I started to gasp for air. As if this part of the psyche had been held under water for eons and was now finally able to breathe. She started to cry at the release of tasting air for the first time.
I instinctively put my arms around myself and started to comfort Her, “It’s okay Lilith. It’s okay Amman. You are no longer cursed to crawl on your belly. You are alive and well and at home in me. I accept you. I love you. You are safe.”
We cried like this for a while. She was letting go of how hard it’s been to have existed in the depths of the collective for so long. This Dark Goddess is Humanity’s archetype of the primal anima, rebellion, authenticity, equality, sexual power and sovereignty. For eons, She has been punished by dogmas and materialistic cultures. Shamed for who she is and how she expresses, relegated to the dark and unacknowledged depths of the Collective Unconscious.
But last night, She took breath again. In me and in all of us. Prepare for a primal shake down in your own life and this world. She will only accept our raw, wild truth.
Embrace her, let her breathe in you and accept the parts of yourself you demonise and repress. Let Her in and you will become who you truly are.